Forward

despite entropy

and being safely ensconced in my 60s

i still haven’t figured it out

the big meaning of it all

i think it’s about 

overcoming adversity

people talk about happiness

striving for it

i think that’s a fools game

i believe that happiness is accidental

it arrives unplanned and often inconvenient

whereas contentment is achievable

but you know

life has a way of making sure you see 

both sides of the coin

certainly 

believing in any kind of politcal dogma

is a path to displeasure

politicians are all bunch of blowbags

trying to scratch out four more years

so 

i’ve cut bait on all of them

and went libertarian 

i have zero faith in politics

no more divison for me

i am on my own path

not sure why i’m deeply reflective today

i retreat to my piano

another rung on the self discovery stepladder

i’m doing pretty well with it

but i woke up asking myself

what’s next?

i just released an album

i paint daily

and i run my business with an eagles eye

so what next?

roslyn has been asking me this exact question

she gets it

i’m unsettled

we powerwashed the decks

and that kept my mind busy

she sees it 

i need tasks

and of course deep down it’s because

i’m running from the pain of losing a son

i’m still married to susan

we never divorced

30 years this august

i see no sense in including any government 

in any of my personal decisions

our suffering is mirrored in each other

those memories of the loss stick 

and tarp over everything

she retreats

i push

for the most part we let each other be

there’s no point in constantly confirming 

each others pain

this is not depression

i still regularily find joy

and 

contentment

and rose loves me strong and true

but that fucking coin flips

you finish one thing 

feel good

and then the spinning wheel spins

and it’s not just me

there’s a collective dialogue going on

my house has become somewhat of a haven

people visit frequently

we have tea

and chat

not about netflix or home decor or other people

but about life

and meaning

and purpose

it’s taken decades

but i have finally become a good listener

in some ways

i consider that a defining achievement

craig

may 20 2026

coffee

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The Share

a nice cottagey part of my company

is that many of us write songs

we record them

and share them

and we all give each other a heart emogi

and listen - once maybe twice

and that’s good

i believe that we all have the music in us

and it manifests in strange ways

plumbing

songwriting

gardening

it all adds to purpose

as far as attaching commerce to anything artistic

it can be done

but it’s rare

sure it’s the big corporates throwing 

heroes up the pop chart

but the cream always rises:

sarah spring

i’ve met her a few times

she records solo piano

real boutique music

she’s getting millions of plays!

millions!

hobbies

you gotta have hobbies

my attention span is fried

i’ve seen all the plot lines

tv shows and movies elude me

instead

i do all kinds of things

like a lot of things

i have to keep moving

quietly i’m scared that i’m living too much

and using up years

my buddy rob

he lives a good life

spends winters in south and central america

him and wife bopping around

they learned to speak spanish

they become friendly with the neighbors

husband and wife - both doctors

and they shared that in El Salvador:

 no one ever shows up in the ER for a heart attack

it’s strictly a north american thing

(also - they put honey on cuts)

i don’t know where i’m going with this

except to say

avoid stress

bravely run away from it

stay golden pony boy

to thine own self be true

prepare for contentment

just keep at it

craig

(digesitive biscuits and coffee)

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Social Society

Social Society

i’m very connected to people 

through social media

sharing a sense of depth and meaning

is affirming

the immediacy and the intimacy of the socials

is the currency

here within the digital age

i’m in the bank awhile back

and my bankers phone buzzes

and i asked him

if that was his buddies sending him reels

and indeed it was

and that’s cool

because we can always use a laugh

cynthia sent me a link to ‘i rate dogs’

it’s a dopamine hit

watching dogs be amazing - you feel it!

anyway

i’m not as perplexed about screen time

as most are

i’ve been saying this for years

also

what’s the point of this blog?

craig

coffee / egg and bacon sandwich with HP sauce from a glass bottle

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