and we’re off
for many of us
24 was a rough year
the loss of my son seemed
sadder this year
i put on a brave face
a mask
however there really is something to be said for
maintaining a positive mental attitude
i really buy into the day
that said
on monday
i couldn’t get out of bed
…but i did
my company is doing well
i’ve surrounded myself with good people
we bring out the best in each other
that gives me spirit
and a confidence about going into the uk
essentially
i’m buying my way in
once the dice roll our way
they superglue to the table
and everything is coming up zeppy!
a strange christmas table conversation with some musicians
apparently we all dream about being at CAL gigs
and everything is going wrong
we don’t know the music
we can’t make our way to the stage
it’s a nightmare
i discern this to be good for the series
we can never rest on our laurels
i’m excited about the next exile show
the massey show was rough
i had covid
i woke up and felt it in the back of my throat
fuck
did the gig
it’s a massive thing to cancel a show
some of the rasp leant well to some songs
on others i was scraping the barrel
anyway
redemption is close
i’ve had lots of vistors by the house
turns out
people want to talk about religion
and beliefs
i think they open up
because i wear a cross
i dunno
i just listen
i tell them that growing up
marvel comics were a big part of my moral foundation
then it was springsteen
now i really enjoy bible stories
the one where jesus is turning over the money tables
that’s superhero stuff
anyway
that’s all i’ll say about that
my son is coming home in a couple weeks
the word freedom has meaning for him
as it does for many of us
it’s nice to see a young person embracing it
without adhereing a self defeating ideology to it
i like my son
a lot of people don’t realize
that i’m still married
to susan
we’ve been through a lot
so both have a zero bullshit tolerance level
there was no point in getting divorced
making lawyers rich
fuck that
i will continue to do anything and everything for her
we’re just incompatible
it’s mostly my fault
and my family is going to get smaller soon
my mum turned ninety three
she's so frail
immobile
but still full of love kindness and grace
I'm very affectionate with her
and I always take the time to tell her that
I love her
and that’s all of muy shit layed out bare
i want to be clean going into 25
the best i can be
so that good people can continue to rely on me
for a good wage
on beautiful stages
in front of caring audiences
peace and prosperity
for 25
craig
(branflakes with maple syrup)
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